Hello old friends,
It’s been far too long since we last spoke. A lot has changed for me, and I’ve decided to take this blog in a new direction…
As most women are, I’m always cognizant of The Number on the Scale. Sometimes I hide from that number. My scale has conveniently been out of sight for a long time. Most recently, I went about 6 months without letting myself know The Number.
Last week I got on the scale and a number appeared that I had never seen. I had never even been close to seeing this number. I had never imagined I would see this number. I was already going through a difficult time, and seeing that number felt like the biggest blow possible. To say that I felt kicked while I was down is an understatement. As I write this, I am the heaviest I have ever been — by a lot.
Seeing that number was about so much more than my weight. It was a huge red flag that I had lost control of my health and, in turn, my life. That number told me that I hadn’t been taking care of myself, not just physically, but emotionally and mentally.
Snark and Pepper will now be about how I’m moving forward after seeing that number on the scale. This will be a chronicle of how I regain control of my life, one step and bite at a time. I will share my struggles and my triumphs. I will share the tough truths about weight loss and being overweight. Of course, I will stay true to my roots as a food blogger and share healthy recipes, too. (Don’t worry, I won’t be taking any of the unhealthy recipes from the past down!)
I originally wanted to start an anonymous or private blog dedicated to my weight loss journey. I knew that writing about my experience would be the best thing I could do to hold myself accountable, but I was afraid to come out in public as ME about my battle with my weight. Ultimately, I’ve decided to use this as an opportunity to refocus Snark and Pepper because:
- People who know me in real life read this blog. I would like to share this experience with those people.
- I want to help other people going through the same struggle as me. Since my blog has been around for a while, I won’t need to start from scratch to attract new readers. Using this already-established blog real estate is the best way to reach more people.
- Staying accountable will be easier if I’m 100% open and not hiding behind an anonymous blog.
- Food will still be a topic I write about. As you already know, I love food. But clearly I love it a little too much. There’s a lot to talk about with regards to my relationship with food.
I’ll slowly be rebranding my blog in this direction over time, but for now I’ll be doing what I feel very compelled to do right now — which is write, write, and write some more.
Shit’s about to get real. I hope you’ll come along for the ride.